Wake Up Call

I thought I knew better already but I don't... I just don't.
I thought I could prove them wrong but no, I still can't. Probably it's not yet the right time.
I thought I could handle myself already but I'm still helpless just like a 5 year old child.

It's such a shame for me that I acted like a complete idiot. Looking back on how I acted, I really feel like cringing right now. But on the brighter side though, it served as a wake up call for me. I've been living in some sort of bubble for quite some time already and luckily my mom popped it for me. We kind of argued last night and early this morning because of some issues pertaining to my course and school choices for college. But thank God, it's settled already. I told her I was sorry and I told her that I just got pressured. Then that was it. Simply forgive and forget. (:
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So, there the last blog entry for the month of June 2008. It's going to be July tomorrow. It's the birth month of my blog. Yay! Haha.

Bummer. I still couldn't think of anything to write for my CL reflection paper. T___T

Spared

(got this nice pic from http://deviantart.com
it was made by WWERockStar)

I just effin' don't understand it why when something is so SIMPLE, I tend to COMPLICATE it! :|

I don't know if it's just me or what but that's one thing that I don't understand about myself...Well, actually, there are a LOT of things that I don't understand about myself but I won't be saying all of them since it might eat up my time. (In case you're wondering, I only have a limited time using the internet cos after this, I'll be doing my homework. :|) Maybe I'll rant in my next entry on Friday.

Classes were suspended yesterday and classes resumed today. Maybe I still have a hangover from the weekend that's why going to school didn't interest me that much. Oh well, I just do hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

This day was really sabog I'd say. But still, I'd like to thank God for helping me survive this day. He listened to my prayer. He spared me from a lot of things that I did not want to do today. :) Haha. But seriously, I thank Him for guiding me throughout the day. :)

Okay. I'm out. Time to do my assignments. Hello Physics, English and Trigo.

Time Out

So, it's officially 12:14am as I'm typing this sentence.

It's already Saturday. Finally! It's the weekend once again.

Anyway, I really had fun yesterday (Friday) even if my day did not really have a good start. :| And it's all because of the ACET form.

Last Thursday night, I asked my dad's permission through text if I could take the ACET and luckily, he said yes. Of course, I was very happy then.

And then, morning came. Before we leave for school, I went up to him to kiss him goodbye and to ask for P500 for the ACET form. But then, he didn't give me the P500. So yea, this was the part where he changed his mind. And to be honest, I really got pissed. The reason why he changed his mind was because of my mom. He told me that she didn't want me to take the ACET. And I was like 'WTF?!' But of course, I didn't say that out loud.

Anyway, that really annoyed me because that is just so UNFAIR! This might sound a bit harsh but sorry to say, I'm the one who is going to study and not her! Okay, I know my parents are the ones who is sending me to school...but come on! I mean, it's my life! Can't I be the one to control it?I know they just want the best life for me but then I have my own decisons as well. They want me to be a mature and independent person.But how could I be mature and independent if they're doing this to me? =( And the sad thing is that they don't trust me with the decisions I make, especially my mom. She says it's always palpak. Hay. Well, at least now I have decided to take up Nursing. It's what they wanted me to take in the first place. I didn't really like it before. I originally wanted to take up Communications Arts or Psychology but during the summer, I changed my mind and I realized that Nursing isn't bad after all. As I say it, I had a change of heart. =P

So going back to what I was saying, I just really find it unfair. It's like I can't decide on my own :| Lucky for them cos they have finally convinced me to take up Nursing but then, I still want to try out for my other choices. There's nothing wrong with that right?

Unfortunately, I wasn't able to convince my dad to say yes again that's why I went to school with a heavy heart. Well, I'm not really mad...but I was really disappointed. I know it's kind of shallow to get disappointed with something like that but that's how I really feel. I just really feel that I've been deprived of my right to decide on my own. I even got teary-eyed cos I was really hoping for it and nothing happened. Good thing my mom didn't see me with teary eyes. She's the one who drove me and my little sister to school.

Since I really got affected by this 'issue', I wasn't able to focus in our first Trigo quiz. I was able to answer itnaman but then I missed out on 2 items cos I didn't notice the one that was written on the board that was supposed to be written at the back of our quiz paper. And then I interchanged something that's why my answer there is already wrong. Great. :| I'm just hoping that I won't fail my first quiz. Please! I'm trying to change here. I WANT TO HAVE A GOOD START!

Anyway, I started to forget about it during our second period and onwards. (Or at least I was trying to forget about it.)

Moving on to the part that made my day. =)

It was a Friday so our regular dismissal was 12:40pm. After our Electives Orientation, we went to Sicilian to celebrate Olivia/Susa's sweet 16th birthday. XD She treated us for lunch and it was so fun! (THANKS SUSA! :D)

Here are some pics. (Got it from Kyle's Multiply)

(The one wearing the cap is the birthday girl. XD Haha.)

So yea, as I have said for the nth time, it was really FUN. It made me forget about the 'issue'. =) We stayed there from 1pm until around 4:30pm. Haha!

Well, on the brighter side of my 'issue', even if my mom did not want me to take the ACET, at least she allowed me to go out with my friends today. =P

Just My Luck

Whew.

Thank God! I survived the first 3 days of school. Even if we didn't do anything that much, it was still tiring... and boring.:| But on the brighter side, we don't have much 'crap' to do yet. =) (Crap as in homework. XD Haha.)

Anyway, here's a recap of what happened during the first 3 days:

First Day (June 11)
So yea. I'm officially a senior student. It was the first day of school. (And not to mention, our last first day of school in high school.) I was excited and nervous at the same time. Excited, because I got to see my friends again. I missed them so much! And on the other hand, I was nervous because of my new class.

My friends and I waited for the bell near the bamboo area. While we were waiting, we were making chika to one another. Speaking of chika, Jess shared us something that she read on a blog. And that one really made us laugh. =)) I think she said something like: "Tangina mo 3rd year! Uulitin na naman kita!" K. Bye. =| =))

Moving on...

When the bell rang, we went to our respective classrooms already. Sadly, my barkada and I don't belong to the same section. Except for Badette and Ange. Lucky for them cos they're classmates.

Last year, I belonged to class III-2 and now I belong to class IV-7. When I looked at our class list, I felt relieved somehow since I found that I know a lot of people in my class. Some of my classmates in 1st year until 3rd year were there. And some of them are good friends of mine. =)

But still, I can't help but feel nostalgic.=| It really happens to me during the start of every school year. Hay. Maybe after a week or two, I'd be okay again. Or if not, maybe in July.

Anyway, we sat down on our chair while we were waiting for our homeroom teacher to come inside and we were quite shocked when Sir Jomar entered our classroom =)) He was my Chem teacher last year. Hahaha. We all thought that he's our homeroom but he's not. Our real homeroom teacher was not around because she has to be with her mother who is already dying of cancer. =(

The day went smooth. But as I have said, it was boring. Because what we did the whole day was sit down on our chairs and listen to the school rules orientation...again.:| Well on the brighter side, at least, they're not lessons. XD Haha. Cos you see, most of us are not in 'school mode' yet.

Gosh. I really miss summer. I could still feel summer because of the weather. It's very HOT! In school, it's much HOTTER cos we're very crowded. As of now, we only have one entrance and exit because the clinic gate is still under renovation. Jeez. Talk about overpopulation. =P

Second Day (June 12)
Pretty much the same thing during the first day: Orientation on school rules. :|

Third Day (June 13)
It was Friday the 13th. Some of us believe the superstition that says that it is a very unlucky day. Well, I don't really believe that superstition before but now I think I already do. =P I really, really had a terrible day!

It was the deadline of our UPCAT application. I thought it would be easy for me since I had them all prepared. I had the four 2x2 pictures and my forms were filled up already. I just have to pass them but then everything went wrong in the records office. When I gave them my four 2x2 pics, they won't accept it cos two of the pics were only in soft paper. I only had them recopied at home cos I thought that was allowed but then, it's not. My good old brother who is studying in UP now didn't even tell me that that wasn't allowed. =P Oh well. When I asked him why he didn't tell me, he told me he didn't know cos in their school, it was allowed.

So, anyway. To make the long story short, I really got tired that day because of that application! I had a lot of expenses. That's why instead of having P200, I only had P60 left on my wallet. I got tired of walking in and out of the school going to Katips just to fix the problem with my 2x2 pics. The scanner in Kodak had a problem that's why I have to take a new picture. Good thing it was free. My mom even got angry at me. She gave me a sermon inside our car. T__T Boohoo. But anyway, she's right about it. It's also my fault. If only I did not procrastinate, that would not have happened.

I was really happy when weekend came. I finally got the chance to relax. Yesterday, it was the birthday of my two cousins. It was a swimming party. So yea, I really had a good time. =)

It's also so good to be back in the choir. I missed RCM so much! I wasn't around during the whole summer. That's why I really missed them so much. :>

Too bad, weekend's over. It's back to school again tomorrow. T___T

WOW! This is the longest post that I have made so far in this blog of mine. Haha.

Once You Get The Oppurtunity, Grab It!

Gosh! I really feel terrible right now. =( How can I be so stupid? Nadawit pa tuloy ako sa isang away na hindi naman dapat ako kasali. Ugh! It's really damn annoying. Everything I do, parati na lang palpak. Parati na lang wrong timing.

Ugh.

Why is it so hard for me to change this attitude? I know I can be strong but why can't I show it to them? Maybe I really am a coward!


Bullsh*t!!

Senior Year Is About To Begin Very Soon

OMG! I really couldn't help but feel nervous. :| I wonder, who will my be classmates this time in my last year in high school? Too bad, we're not blocked. So yea, we have to adjust once again. It's not that easy to adjust especially when you're only a new student way back in first year high school. You see, we're 10 sections in our batch and in each class we're around 40+ plus students. So more likely, we're like around 450+ girls in our batch. Too many right? I don't even know half of my batchmates. :| Unlike in Assumption, I think I know almost everyone in my batch there cos we're not that many.

And one more thing I don't like about the reshuffling is that we have to introduce ourselves infront of that class. You know, I really don't like doing that. :| That's what I hate during the first day of classes. :| Ugh. I mean come on! We've been doing it since first grade, I guess. o__O

Our school will be releasing our sections tomorrow and as I have said, I'm really nervous. I'm really hoping that I'd be classmates with my barkada, the Friendly Friends. We were all classmates back in second year but we belonged to different sections in third year. Basta, kahit isa lang sa kanila ang maging classmate ko, masaya na ako. But of course, I'm still open for new friends in my new class. =)

All I'm asking for God now is that I would have a very memorable school year since this would be my last year in high school. I want to remember good memories. =) That's why I'm really, really hoping for good classmates because I know they would really make a big impact on whatever that is going to happen this school year.

Making a Comeback

Hello there friends! After 126252478343897298390 years (okay. exagged! haha), I'm back here at bloggers. Sorry I haven't updated this for a very, very long time. Well, blame my laziness. XD Haha.I kinda got lazy going here but since I was visiting another blogspot, I thought I'd drop by my dear old blog. And so I did! Haha. That explains why I'm here right now.

Anyway, I will really, really try to update my blog regularly and tell you guys about my crazy adventures in life. (well, if there is any. haha.)

So I noticed that there were some people who posted at my tagboard. Thanks a lot! And for those who are asking for link exchange, SURE! :> Imma fix my blog in awhile. Maybe I'll try to change the layout too.

So, I'll end it here for now. :>

Later.